I spent what little blogging time I was able to get cleaning up the post from July 2.

We are now getting into some deep stuff.

I hope to go much deeper still.

This is an especially painful subject for me because I know all of the things which I am talking about from hyper-personal experience.

I am tremendously grieved by all which I see going on around me when it comes to this particular subject of narcissism run amok, such that you have entire narcissistic societies.

Before continuing much further I think that I probably should quickly define exactly what I am talking about when I say "narcissism".

Many people think that this is some kind of mental disease of over-amplified self-love.

But, a closer look reveals that it is in fact, a most profound case of self-hatred.

And it is vitriolic and visceral.

So much so that when I tell you how beautiful and wonderful you are it makes you panic instead of be pleased.

Now, that really is a problem.

That is not how it is supposed to be.

It is damage which has been caused by being in the company of toxic and mentally unstable relatives, friends, and associates.

The self-hatred cries out, quite loudly, that you are no good and do not deserve to be loved by any person who is worthy of the job.

This can often be seen in the idea of girls who chase after useless, worthless men, because they are so exciting, once or twice.

What do they call them.

Women who run with wolves, or some such thing?

That is to say, if they are not being degraded and/or denigrated on a regular basis by their life partner, then they feel that something must be seriously wrong or is about to be seriously wrong.

The idea of everything being just fine is anathema to them, as it were.

This creates huge walls, which can serve some useful functions and purposes, but which can very much get in the way of emotional and spiritual intimacy between two human beings.

Between a man and a woman, they often spell D-I-S-A-S-T-E-R.

What is actually a terrifying form of fear and misgiving is now viewed with suspicion by the partner who wonders just what exactly his or her life mate is up to now.

This is only happening because the person with the hidden hurt feelings refuses to expose them to the full light of day.

Of course, they are afraid that they would most certainly be rejected if this other person were to know of their dark secrets and their very dark side, which they will be all too quick to deny the very existence of.

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I hope to be posting some photos right away.

I am choosing the exact ones right now.

They are from past couple of weeks with some interesting nature photos.

I do not really have any writing plan, as such.

I just sit down and start without ever knowing what I will say.

So, I cannot really tell exactly where I will go next or even where I am headed, except in a very general way.

So, I guess you'll just have to wait, along with me.

Hope to post more later today.

Dinner at 5 p.m. at Ventura Marina (Milano's) = might get in way.

Should be fun.

Hope all is well with all of my loved ones,
whom I love so very much.

To those who are unable to communicate,
or correspond at this exact time,
for whatever reasons,
I love you all very much
and hope that you can soon communicate.

In the meantime you are in my around-the-clock, 24/7, prayers.

And I do mean that very literally.

I wish you the liberation which this day is supposed to represent.

Miss you and love you very much.

w/profound love, respect, and admiration



vw


7-4-12

Ventura, California, USA

8:55 a.m. pdst